had a new born anak sdare in the hse . my cuzzie just gave birth ! woooohooooo ! she thought of naming her , Dayang Sayang Bte D'zul Hamzah . nice kan ? haha . got sayang in the name . best nyeeeeeeeee . hehe . congrats to kak tisha wid her new born bby girl !! see u soon bby dayang ((:

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now its exactly 541am in the morning . i woke up so early today . woke up at 4 . lols . am tired but cnt slp cos kept thinking and dreaming abt stuffs . weird & scaryy . had sooo many bad dreams ths week . i just cldnt undrstand why . why ehk ? each night , there will always be up to 2 to 4 bad dreams each night . and ill always wake up 4 to 6 times . my sister sleeping pon she can say im crazy . i just cldnt sleep . but if i do , ill end up having these weird dreams again then sometimes ill end up crying when i wake up . but actuali weird luh . cos theres this one dream , where i dream abt myslf saying , " i have to leave , but if i had all the time of my life , i would want to spend it all with u . " i didnt quite sure to who i was saying it to or to who i was referring to . cos i didnt realli quite remember the face .

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will update about class bbq , bby & shooting soon okey ? maybe tmr ? take care ppl ! love bby ((:

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FINALLY ! the blog skins & blog features are all finished . fuhhh ! tired okey ! but im satisfied (: today ehk ? had lottsa fun with the kiidds ! i mean , baby's cousins & siblings . actualli , if i had to listen to what baby said earlier , i wouldnt have ths mucccch fun ! hahas . actualli , ths was what happened , baby wanted to meet me tday . so was mad at him in the mrng at first *inside story* no nid to know . then met him right beside sch . cos cldnt go around walking on my own with a bloody nose . didnt know why actuali tht it was bleeding . then baby came to the rescue then met him beside sch afta meeting . tros he decided to go & eat cos he actualli knew i didnt eat yest . ( good thg u made yur choice & finally made up yur mind ! ) hehe . then after that we didnt know where to go . then he said , we go "walk2" at my house after walk2 at tm . but then i was kinda scared cos mummy & papa not working today . & still circling around tm . i dont mind mummy see us , tp the thg is papa . haha . i havnt introduced baby to him yet . haha ! well , anw . then i tot maybe we cldnt singgah tempat bby's grandparent's place to see his siblings & cousins . cos i miss them ! then da gtu , we sat down under the void deck till group lelaki semua dtg , maen rugby . violent u ! then afterwards , me & baby sat kat plyground untill group pompan plak yang dtg . then , to my suprise , the first person who came running to me was beloved Syahirah (: baby's cousin . hehe . sooo the kecoh ! then came fiqah , syiqin and then yah . they were adorable ! so the peramah ! like baby ! hehe . first all of them maen game masing2 . group pompan & laki separate . tros raining ! alamak ! then they decided to go to the void deck & continued playing . me & bby just followed . tros adek nizam ke sape tah came out of the idea of playing " ALI POM " . haha . da lama sei tak maen game tuh . then the girls group invited me to play ali pom with them . haha . first i was shy . then syiqin was saying " Pleeeaaaaseeee " with her cute face . so i didnt want to upset her . then i decided to tag along . hehes . was supperrr superrrr fun playing ali pom with them . lgy2 when baby & i hiding together , skali ade this one cute & little cute girl following us . hehe . syiqin was always with me all the way thru ali pom game . cute ! haha . then she ask2 me so many qns abt baby . sorrey ehk bby , kite tk mengumpat . hehe . then everytime when baby made syiqin upset , she'll slap him ! hahahaahahah ! i was laughing all the way when bby asked " u suke dier sepak i ? " then i said , " takp luh . dier takp , cos she's yur cousin , sepak bnyk2 . " haha . u shld have seen baby's face after that . lol (:

then lps tuh the game got boring cos satu satu majok sbab kite sume sembunyi jauh2 . haha ! esp adek zaidan . hehe . cute luh zaidan ! just like baby . (: then da gtu , after rain stop , we went to the playground again . tros next game was captain's ball . im in adek nizam's team . & we scored the most ! wohhhoo ! tp nazrul luh ! haiyaa . asyik misskn score . hehe . takp . at least we enjoy ehk ? hehe . i realli need to say ths , but it was kinda funny when baby told me how to differentiate btwn the twins , nazri & nazmi . then baby said , " nazri dier yg mature & gelap , then nazmi yg si lembut & mcm gay skit ! " hahahhahahahahaha ! i was laughing like hell . till i got soooo hyperrrr . haha . playing captain's ball was great but abit rough till fights happen . *inside story* no need to know . overall , the kidds realli made my day . treat them like my own siblings . love them alot ! these are all the names of the kids i treasure with love ;

- Nizam - Bariyah - Zaidan
- Irah - Fiqah - Syiqin
- Nazrul - Nazri - Nazmi
- Iwan & - Irfan

with Love ♥
alyn . [ Bby , i love you ! ]

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MY BLOG HAS INCOMPLETE FEATURES . ITS UNDER CONSTRUCTION . SORREY FOR THE INCONVINEANCE . BLOG SKIN WILL BE IN PROPER BY 930PM . THANKS & SORREY ONCE AGAIN .

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had been having these vomit feeling evry time i get up from bed . all of the sudden . weird right ? hrmm . well , didnt had a great week . missed baby alrd . just told him what's wrong with me . hope he understands . stiap kesalahan ade hukum nye . well , didnt really had enuf rest . my heart & back hurts . only God knows how i felt . im not torturing myslef . its just how the body systems reacts . wondered how huh ? sometimes i wonder how the reactives in the body system can actualli hurt us . its all chemicals in the body kan ? well , anw . i know im talking crap . hrm , had been having nose bleed often . sometimes 2 to 3 times a day when my bad headaches starts filling in . its the worst feeling ever . & when it bleeds , it wont stop . well , stop luhh . but itll be long . theres ths one time , i was staying up the whole night , while doing smthg for baby's bday or probably drawing smthg , skali i didnt realise that my nose bleed . i only realise when i saw a red stain on the floor . i tot it was the crayons i used , probably i accidentally drew it on the floor .cos my eyes were kinda blur . tgok benda laen , laen yg aku namekan . but then what i tot was wrong . it was liquid & it smelt like blood & smelt smthg bloodish near my nose . i stood up , & wanted to take a look in the mirror . then realised my nose was bleeding . actualli stange . weird . then abg saw my nose bleed he went to send me to the doctors . doc said *inside story* . only baby knows . shhh .

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okey. im now tired. tired of evrythg . tired of quarelling with baby . bt his making me ths way & smtimes making thgs harder 4 the both of us . im tired & sick to get up so borrowed bro's psp to post ths short post . TIRED & SICK

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well , as usual . its a saturday . nthg mucch to do . except went for a run with doc in the mrng since they cancelled the run at stadium . woke up at 530 in the morning , went to bathe . then out to run . after that , went home at 7 when the sun rose . then took a bathe again . all i could do was sit stare & think . i cldnt tell u the truth . u ask me , " beh tak dpt jmpe bby ? " i cldnt ans anythg . all i cld say was , " bkn aje bsok , mon tak dpt jmpe . bsok , lusa , hari keesoknya hingga dua minggu tak dpt jmpe . " tp since u were busy on monday , i cldnt see u . only on that day was the only day i cld see u . after that ill be unavailable as my 'stitching day' is drawing near . itll be on the 20th . mon was the only day u cld have see me . tp since yur busy , i cldnt help but accept it . sorrey i wasnt able to tell u ealier , the thruth was , i didnt want anyone to know . but thgs turned out to be different to what i expected . i shld have told u in the first place . i know , im wrong . take care of yur siblings , my precious darlings , NIZAM , YAH & ZAIDAN . i miss them . goodbye .

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Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkan mu
Tapi kini kusadari ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkan mu
Tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
Ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa
ku harus memilikimu slamanya

Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkan mu
Tapi kini kusadari ku diantara kalian
Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
Ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa
Ku harus memilikimu slamanya

Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi

Lupakan aku kembali padanya
Aku bukan siapa siapa untukmu
Ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa
Ku harus memilikimu slamanya

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okey . what the heck . tonight me & baby fought again . i was definitely , terribly tired like hell then i slept on the bed after i got dressed up . actualli today my family & i were suppose to go to uncle's place for donnoe what occasion . and i desparately want to go , to see my niece & nephews . becos i slept , my family left me alone at home . pissed off uh ! panas hati ! then da gtu , another problem ! baby didnt bother to msg to wake me up ! DARN ! i feel like shitt after tht . not even one msg he sent me . what is he trying to tell me ? u don't love me anymore ? well , thats FINE ! if u want , i can give u the permission to leave ! haiix . yur the only one who wakes me up or even bothered to send me an extra msg just to ask me my where & howabouts . but today , u realli gave me this impression that u don't darn care ! up to you luhh .. i just donnow what else to talk some sense to u . u alrd know me , if i were to be bz , ill definitely give u msg & say im bz . at least just give me a msg ke ape ? ITS ABOUT INITIATIVE ! sometimes , ask yurself , why thgs happen .

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im so damn tired with no such mood my backbone hurt my eyes feel like they are going to drop cos studied till about 2+ in the morning then dozed off till 5 then woke up again to study gosh im tired & dont feel like putting any punctuation marks to this post cos im tired of stopping my head realli hurts have been having these heavy headaches for months alrd body cramps all over & realli feel like vomitting right now i tink after this i wanna doze of realli cannot take it having my eyes open wide ive done my best for the bridging exam just hope my effort paid off anw goodbye ill be back to write a proper post damn im tired .

see how tired i am ?

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well , someone complained tht i like to use malay for my blog & she doesnt like it . right arnia ? hehe . kk , ill try use alil bit of malay & more english for dear readers . hehe . well , im trying to improve my malay also u know . bahasa ibunda kalo taq pass . haiyoo . my mummy will surely say , " u learn malay & yur father a malay , but still your not gd at your own language . gy blajar philippine sudah ! " hehe . okey okey . im starting with malay again . ill try my best ehk . (:

well , today nthg muchh . met with bby bcos i needed to burrow his maths text book . ive lost mine ! well , not lost luhh . somhow misplaced it sumwhere . then i asked him some thgs im unsure for maths . bcos tuesday im having my bridging test & it sucks ! gossshh .. then now , slacking jap , then i continue study again . well anw , back to the topic ..

today , actulli bby asked me somethg which he didnt know abt me . i told him i like gerimis .
he asked me why . then i said to find out in my blog . but i realised i havent wrote about it yet . well , to tell u da truth , i realli love gerimis . gerimis in english is .. [ fill in the blanks ] hehe .
to me , gerimis is light . its not as heavy as hujan lebat . gerimis to me is somethg innocent looking . but hujan lebat is 'deadly' . u play with heavy rain , ull surely get sick . i gurantee u . gerimis its not 'deadly' . its light like feather that touches your body & its light like the feeling of love . u just imagine , your in the light rain , spreding your arms wide with your eyes closed . its just the best feeling ever . the feeling & the fresh smell of little droplets of light rain drops to yur face as if you've just been hugged by someone . thats just the feeling . other than heavy rain , isnt it heavy & painful when u walk in the heavy rain where heavy rain drops hits your body ? i just wonder why bby loves the heavy rain so much .

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okey ppl ! link me pls ! ((: deleted my last blog bcos ade org spam my blog & ltak bende yg sungguh tak senonoh gtu . Link Link Link ! & leave comments if you wish to . Thank u (;

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okey , i just feel like writing this . ive got this old friend of mine . we're friends for three years & still counting . sec1 nan 2 samer class . tros tibe2 sec3 sumer daa split up . can say that he's one of my best friend , till now . kite suke joke2 nan kcau kcau dulu . tros tibe tibe dier luah kn prasaan dier kat i ths yr . TERKEJUT ! eyy , sape sey tak terkejut u tell me ? he's like the typical guyfriend to anyone . & i tot the last time we were bestfriends forever . he said ,

he liked me after i was with someone & till i was with baby .


then i realli think its too late to love me now . i just dun want to hurt u . but i realli think u shudnt have liked me in the first place if u know u didnt had the guts to tell me the last time . sekarang i btol btol tak tahu ape nak buat . ive loved someone else . &your also my bby's bstfriend .

ive read your PM kat msn . sometimes what u say mcm u nga sindir i . but i didnt know who you were referring to . im sorry .


but i also have to agree that his also a nice guy . always helping me those days . missed thos times .

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okey , i rase kan . taya luh post benda benda lamer . whats past biar kn past luhh kan . tp sayang sei :( ade 40+ post kat blog lamer tuh . ey ! sape org tuh ehk yg spam my blog ! brani tarok name uhh ! alamak ! && sorrey for the empty tagboard . cos its new . comment pls (: mcm tak senonoh gtu kan ? tsk !

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okey . this is the new blog . i spent at least four hours plusssss doing ths new blog . goshh ! pening . i woke up at 5am sbab takle tdo then do the whole blog . mcm nak terkeluar mata i tgok laptop lamer lamer . its all bcos adee ORANG spam my blog ! like stupid gtu kan ? okey , u imagine ehk .. u nga tulis post tros " POOOF ! " . ble nak post je , suddenly ade alot of thgs yang bertapa sungguh nye merepek come out . ALAMAK ! fed up i jd nye . TAK SENONOH punye org . pfft ! now psl org tuh , i kene tulis the whole blog semula . kalo i maseh ingat . mcm idiot gtu kan ? then lgy i mls nak customize my blog skin . mls & frustrating . so i tot i nak ltak simplae simple nye blog skin . punye susah naaaaak carrriiik ! okey , now im off to post the old thgs tht was deleted . bodoh ! opps (:

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