Sunday, November 9, 2008 ♥
my observations , bby changed this week . changed as in his attitude . & i got so angry with him the whole week . i was mad like hell . some part of me just made me tink tht its my fault . but another says im not . that had got me confused the whole week . untill i didnt even rpl his msges . ntah luh . nak kate keliru psl diri sendiri , i tak tahu . keliru psl kelakuan dier? i pon tak tahu . sooo confused ! tapi me & bby agreed to forget everythg that has happend . cos its also the fact that this happens for a reason . it's our ups & downs . slalu nye kite yg tlg org . tapi now its our turn . our challenge . c'mon ! i have to be strong although im too tired to face this same situation like ive faced in the past . its exactly the same . the same damn thing . penaaat taw ! u tink what .
well , its my fault also . i terlalu panas baran . that , i cnt stop . kadang kadang , i make myself understand his position , then ble part i , he just couldnt understand , couldnt guess or knew what i really want . that i hate . tp i pon da brubah . itu i sedar . mmg i da brubah , tapi i cuba sedaya upaya i tak tunjuk kan dan cuba brubah alek . its always psl brubah . i just cldnt understand why . bby brubah . bby da tak mcm dulu . b dulu lebih penyayang then kite jarang gado . kalo gado pon , takd luh smpai serious mcm ni . knp sekarang b ?
tapi one thg i hate & i cldnt bring myself to tell him is his not taking any INITIATIVE at all alrd . okey , u imagine ehk . kalo u tak dpt jumpe yur mataer for maybe a week or two , then u ade chance nk jmpe hanya bsok je . u korban kn bola training atau meeting yur mataer ? mane satu important ? then i tny dier , bola tuh skali skala ke dalam hidup ? abeh mataer yg slama ni syngkn u nak ltak mane kalo u penting kn bola ? then biler nak jmpe i , stakat dua jam je . dua jam tak boleh ganti dgn satu minggu taw . tros i fed up . mmg i da maafkn dier lps tuh , tp , troooos dier start hal lgy . alamak . makin lamer makin tk kuat luh i jdnye . cis ! next problem jgak sbab dier tgok2 cuci mata kat pompan laen & terkasar & sikap kurangajar for the rest of the weeks remaining . then kite fikir its enuf . psl i btol2 da takle tahan lgy . then kte solve the problem cepat cepat . naseb baek it came to his senses that solving our problem is much more important that the training . u blng i ? mataer sape sei tak mara u penting kan bola dr mataer . nnti mataer terlepas , jgn menyasal ehk ! sbab itu juga kepercayaan i terhdp dier semakin kurang sbab kelakuan dier . tapi ...
then by end of the day , everythg starts to be fine SLOWLY . at least its pregressing altho kepercayaan i terhdp dier da tak sepanuhnye mcm dulu . tp i da ckp , trust can be gain again . asal kn tak ulang lgy kesalahan tuh , i can start to trust u fully like i used to .
dun wori b , thgs will get back to normal . &harap we would get back like we used to . i realli miss the old you ..
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